Suicide

Discussion on TransgendersAtWar

A lot of the comments assume the worst about motives and the OP apparently is being bullied online which isn't okay.

Part of what helped me conclude that being RAPED at age twelve caused me to have some kind of PHYSICAL ailment of some sort that MADE ME suicidal is a story about a Dutch teen who was sexually assaulted at age 11, raped at age 14 and eventually took her own life because she was just miserable all the time and it was not getting better.

I was suicidal for decades. Most people think being suicidal is "crazy" and evidence of mental health issues. It's extremely hard to convince people that if you are miserable enough and your problems are bad enough and the whole world is actively making things harder, deciding to end your suffering the only way possible in the short term while feeling like staying alive is agreeing to a fate worse than death seems pretty god-damned reasonable.

As for the bullying, I believe a lot of people do bullshit like that because LGBTQ people are "triggering" for folks with baggage related to their sexuality or gender in some way. Percentage of people with baggage related to their sexuality or gender is only about one hundred and ninety percent of humanity. Or maybe 2000 percent. I forget which.

That doesn't excuse it. But it helped me cope with the bullshit from other people when I realized something like "Most of x type of asshole isn't really TRYING to LIE to ME. They are lying to THEMSELVES about something and it's just not possible to politely and respectfully tell me the truth and continue lying to themselves and the people around them that they feel threatened by."

I feel that the degree to which the trans community suffers from suicidal ideation and suicide attempts is one part due to the ridiculous amount of social bullshit they suffer and one part evidence that it's a MEDICAL condition impairing their immune function and thus making them physically miserable and unwell.

See also: Murder by Suicide